my long lost theory

Ups... Been nearly one year.. (more..)

Things happen:
1. Went for 1 month holiday on september - october
Went to shanghai to see my friends getting married. And went to my lovely hometown.
Despite of having erupted volcano. I was there.. Ekekekkekeke

2. Got enggage (yayyy)
One nite (8th Dec), I am really tired been working since 7 am to 4 pm. Had a bit of nap, then the boy woke me up... Let's have dinner.. (The exact word "have dinner yuk you")
After dinner (I felt abit agitatted cos tired) he said let's go to see the lake.. (In my mind "God pleasseeee I need sleep") then he asked "The Question"

3. This is most excited. I moved to different industry (not completely)
I have been strugling in my last job since an accident happen last year.. I won't get any promotion, I don't feel happy, I hate every minute of it.. Finally with all the effort I got a job.. i went to different industry.. i was touch about my new boss. He was great, He stands up for me (about the wage) how can i asked for much more...

got extended for another 6 months and guess what.... I will get permanent job... Yaayyyyy

4. We just got a house.. More likely it's a shelter ATM... But we start small then by the time I know it it will be a home

5. Me n the boi got ourself a puppy.. Her name is misha and she is a shar pei ( picture coming) everybody loves her..

I think that's the only update I got for now

Dear dairy 17/08/10

last month, i did something stupid.. and nearly cost me my job. i was stress for few days.. was sad for few weeks... but it took me 1 months to realise that a lot of people are care about me.. just now.. i went for drinks with couple of my friends..2 of them are leaving (going overseas).. as me and couple friends are separating he said to me not to do stupid things, i just replied him to be carefull, he replied that he concern about me more than about him.....

it took me 1 month, to realise that someone care about me and i was too absord about myself. it seems like i was in the pool of my own thought and i had been swimming there for awhile...
it touched me and in same time slapped me on my face..

someone else told me that i have to be strong, and that i am one tough cookie.. am i? he said that he believes in me and if im hold on i will get there...

i am one self-absord girl ever... it is not very hard to know who is in my back.. but i refuse to see it.

where i will be and what will i be.. in this stage im not sure yet.. but for them i will hold on and be patient..

i really greatfull... when i feel lonely God still send me good friends that always hold my hands when im fall... He send me good friends that will hug me while im cry....

My Theory of loving your own body

if you asked any girls in the world, do they love their body... it will be a hard question...

we girls.. love our shoes not our feet

love our headbands, not our hair

love our earings, not our ear

love our dresses, but not our body

no woman/girls will say to be a girl is easy to do. judgement come and go, and the harshes 1 is usually from..... guess who... girls.

boys might not notice that girls has fat chin, hair looks like poodle, the dress to big/tight for her.. its all girls... girls that notice....

girls will notice a smallest changes in your body.. like "wowww... u gain weight" when you actually had big lunch..... WTF.

I believe sometimes we girls does put dresses for other girls... (it is a hard world *somehow Disney song came up to my mine.... Weird...)

so what is the advantages from the girls saying that... Domination she feels better about it and to cover her self insecurities...

Seriously the stinking skinny girl look at other not so skinny girl in a second will think that she is fabulous then come for dinner or lunch finish probably the skinny girl will rush off to toilet and try to puke all the food she just ate.... (self punishment??)

So what should we girls do to love ourself?
1. Be real to urself
2. If you think something not rite do something about it... (i.e. good diet.. )
3. Knowledge is sexy ( we might not miss universe but we can hold conversation and do understand what the opposite said.. I always believe beauty can fade... Flown with the time...)

Of course there are lots of stuff you can do.. Since this is my theory the 3 above are good enough..

I'm not saying that I'm the greatest.. This is a long journey.. And I'm far from my destination.. But if we girls can hold together we will achieve lots together

Tell me ur theory how to love ur body?

MY Theory of bad service

I work in the hospitality industry, and i serve people with smile and love to help them. when i am out about to have a dinner or lunch in the restaurant, not that i expect people to serve me the same but at least FUCKIN SMILE and treat everybody the same. At the moment, it takes them 15 mins to get water. When i asked y take so long they just said sorry he was busy... So this place really shit service and no organisation... where is the team fuckin work in here....

This place called ribs and rumbs located in the homebus bay.. NOT RECOMMEND TO ANYONE

MY Theory of Undercover boss

i am working in hospitality industry.. it is very hard industry with low salary. they said it is about lifestyle. in this industry, i believe everybody have to work hard like a slave and act like a puppet. if you are a supervisor, just stand in the cashiering desk and look pretty.



i dont think hospitality need a bachelor for it.. if i am a prime minister, i will take hospitality course in tafe, highschool, even in university off. cos no one in this world want to be a waiter for their dream jobs. a lot of asian (just like me and my family), think that if we have (or their children have) a bachelor degree, as soon as they graduate they will be at least a supervisor.... BIG MISTAKE.



my theory of the place that im on at the moment... they taught us about human truth: to be in control, reach their potential, to be understood, to feel special, and to be in control. they do it.... i believe.. but they are only do it for their pets.. if you are not their pets... sorry dude we are in the same column.. the "left over" and the "filled in". "left over" and "filled in" is support people who is there for their convinient..



i watch undercover boss where CEO and HIGH MANAGER even an OWNER work for 1 week in their company but in each different place everday.. as entry level.. i really wish one of the high end manager of the company that im working with atm do that... not that they will be noticed... they could find someone to do that observation... to see a lot of people that not very happy in that place.

im putting this entry is not only because im upset with my job but also disappointed. my general manager just retired he mentioned that do not stop dreaming cause his dream actually happened. is he a pet? when is dreams become hard to be reached? when is the dream need to stop while they always see us as "filled in"?

My THEORY of someone with grazy respect

Last weekend was so shit but fun...
What happen?
Someone rudely asked me y i didnt do what she asked me to do, since im short tempered, i raised my voiced and said "i was busy. Ill do this soon.."
The end of the nite, she urged me to talk to me..
The talk start like this
She "i appriciated for you to do it, however i didnt apriciate how you replied me... You were raising your voiced and banging the juice.. Since im you supervisor i want you to respect me"
Me " (what u r maniac respect now??) well i didnt think i raised my voice"
Sharply she said " yes u were"
Me "well i dont like the way u asked me"
And then she kept saying " in the end of the day, im your supervisor and you have to respect me"

You know what make me feel shit the most was the part of " in the end of the day im your supervisor, you have to respect me"
If anyone said that to you, i'll give you few options:
• since this person i know only for 2 months, i will say " lets just to know each other" (keep the tone down even you want to say u shit ass..)
Or
• hey look, *u sh!twhole* u can assume anything i wont stop u... Respect is something u earn not instanly in there when u wear suit.

so look who ever you are if you wearing a suit and think that you are the top of everyone else just because you got the title, please think again.. you think u can hold people unfortunately everybody is LAUGHING AT YOU!!!!!!!

my COMMITMENT of changes

i have a commitment now...
i would like to change and i will do it gradually..
this week assignment : "new hair"
sunday is the "day" to do it

i want it from cute, child like to mature.... what ever it takes... perm, blond (not really).

any suggestion for next assignment to "change me"... im up to it....